Back to Parent' Voices Lashawn
Kids Hi. I am Zachary's mom, My name is Lashawn. Last Year on April 1, 1999, I took Zach to the pediatrition for a regualar checkup, and for Kindergarden shots with absolutely nothing else in mind. You can imagine my shock and horror when the Doctor came in and said, "I am sorry ma'am but I have some bad news." My first reaction was to break down and sob before he even told me what was wrong. As a loving mother, I was petrified and instantly was thinking the worst, you know the unmentionable word a mother never wants to hear (cancer).

The Doctor must have know what I was thinking by the look in my eyes. He said, "No ma'am, let me rephrase that statement. Your son has sugar in his urine. We need you to go straight to the hospital for blood work." Well, needless to say, we didn't leave that hospital until 3 days later.

Don't get me wrong. I was and am completely thrilled that Zach didn't have what my initiative thought was, but when I lay there with Zach that first night in the hospital, when we first got a moment alone after a very overwhelming day, I prayed and said ya know Lord, Thank You for Zachary not having a terminal illness such as cancer, but you know, I don't like the idea of him having diabetes either. I mourned and mourned this condition set forth apon my child. I can't tell you how many times I had to leave the room just to let out some anguish and tears of despair. All the while I had this awesome little 5 year old boy who really didn't seem a bit scared or worried.

The reason why I am sharing all these details with you is because I want parents who get this news and are completly frightened, and horrified--sheesh so many emotions in the beginning. Anyway, I want them to know it's normal and that I'd be happy to talk with anyone that needs me too.

Since that day of discharge things only became to seem normal again. No more brain jamming sessions pumped full of tons of information that just left my head spinning. I got my child home, and each day, little by little, I realized just how much normality there is to this disease. Zachary is a very normal, healthy little boy.

I remember my biggest fear being how am I ever gonna poke my own child with a needle? Especially when I am terrified of needles myself. Well all I can say it is amazing as to what strength a parent can find in when it comes to the health of their child.

Zach started out on Humalog insulin about 3 times a day. This was while he was going thru the honeymoon stage. He is out of the honey moon stage now and takes both Lente ( which is a long lasting insulin) along with Mumalog. I am so thankful this is a controllable disease. I will always have my fears daily for him. Like, for example, making sure he always has shoes on before he goes outside so he wont hurt his feet. I am working really hard at making sure my child has the love for himself that he will always want to take care of himself even when he is a grown man.

I have two other children also. In the photo you can see my three children: Kaylee 8, Zach 6 and Jared 4.

Parents please feel free to e-mail me if you just need a friend to listen too that has gone thru every step of emotions you are going through. We can be of confort to one another. There is strength in numbers:)

Lashawn Goin

Published January 29, 2000

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